This here picture is before we got the feet upon feet of snow!
There has been a lot going on in our lives since my last blog post!
I wish I can say that with all the adventures, new scenery, and new things to experience, everything is going great.
In the beginning, the thrill of a new location, new place, and even the bush part of Alaska made the emotions in check for a little while. Quickly, the reality started sinking in.
I had left my home, where my family and most of the people I have known my whole life were within a driving distance. I can say that YES, I have lived away from my parents home for awhile, but it's just not the same. When you truly leave your home, is when you leave state and start to build a life away from that home state.
Things weren't that great after this reality set in. I fell into a slump where I wasn't excited about going on adventures, I was not happy about the fact that I couldn't find a job right away, and I left the place where there were endless opportunities. I doubted myself and my abilities, I questioned what I was really doing in my life, because I wasn't in a good place. I wondered if I was good enough and worthy of everything that I had, thankful for the life I had already been given before this move. I didn't have the freedom to drive and go get something to eat, go to the grocery store and have endless options to buy for anything, wasn't able to just get in the car to get out of the house. I isolated myself by consuming my time in online window shopping and sometimes just spending for the sake of having something to buy. Things, just simply put, were not great.
I think back on these emotions, and it makes me regret not being more appreciative of the life that I had already lived. I was bitter towards those that were closest to me, I felt rage at something that I couldn't figure out.
Yes, I now have a job out here, and even in the midst of getting into the routine of working again, things are still just difficult. I wish I didn't interact with those whom I love with irritation and negativity. I wish I had seen how my engagement with others was negatively effective my relationships.
There comes a time in our life where we have to accept that we are vulnerable in every way. I have learned through the past 3 months that we tend to have large egos and our pride is over the charts. It's as hard to thing to swallow when one finally sees how selfish they truly were. How this selfishness affects everything around you, and it's not pretty!
In experiencing all of this, I have learned that there are just some things that are out of our control. There are times when you have tried everything, but there is only one option left, and it scares you to death. Life isn't always easy, but there is so much to be thankful for even at the end of a terrible day.
Welcome to the unattractive version of life when you come to a road block, sorry ladies and gents! On to better and happier things.
Winter is still here and it's still chilly and most certainly snowy! A few weeks ago we had snow above my head in places where it was piled up. We had days where the temperature maintained single digits, some teen digits, but most recently, in the thirties. Snow is slowly starting to melt, leaving puddles everywhere. When I came back from the lower 48, everything was white. Check it out! Here is Brevig from the plane, all covered in white!
I've traveled quite a few places while being away, a couple of those places being Colorado, St. Louis, and New York.
St. Louis - though it is the winter season, St. Louis does not have any winter weather to speak of. While there, I was blessed with 50-60 degree weather with the occasional drop of temp to 30 degrees.It was rather awesome and I enjoyed having nice weather because I knew that I would be coming back to quite cold weather. I was spoiled while in St. Louis, and going home would be a cold and bitter transition!
New York - I went back to New York to visit with my family since I wouldn't be visiting during the summer. I couldn't get enough pizza while I was there and had New York's glorious version of garlic pizza ALL the time!. Some places don't make the white garlic pizza, but in my personal opinion, that's the only way!
I didn't do much in New York either, but I did make a throw blanket while I passed time. It is taller than me, and very heavy as it's three strands of thread crocheted into one stitch. It took about 20 hours to make and the bigger it got, the heavier it became!
It's huge and these huge slabs of ice line the shore! It's amazing to see! This is one of the sunrises that I was able to witness while stepping out for lunch. At that time, the sun the was still rising around 1130am and setting around 4/5pm.
That has officially changed as we are gaining back our daylight hours! We now wake up at 730/8 am with the sun already up and shining, and it doesn't set until 1230/1 am. Soon enough we are only going to have no darkness at all!
There has been a few aurora's that I have missed, that from what I've heard, had the multiple colors in the pictures that you see of it. I am disappointed to have missed them, but it still comes out, so I'm hopeful that I may get to capture the multiple colors soon! If not, there is always next year!
The last ride Aaron and I went on, we drove to Teller, approximately 7 miles from Brevig.
This is Brevig from where we were sitting behind a large chunk of ice that allowed us to burrow down and avoid the sharp and bitter air. When we started getting chilly, we headed back home to warm up and finish our hot apple cider!
On to the pups!
You would think that I would learn from the past 5 years that any time I left my bedroom door open, some dog decides to go in, and lay on my bed. Nope, I didn't learn. I left my door open to warm up my room, and I walk in, not expecting anything abnormal, and boom (!), dog sprawled out in the middle of my bed!
Now, Zver. Well we had to buy him and Anubis leashes because they would disappear into the village since the snow is so high they can just hop right over our 3 foot barricade. Each morning, and most of the times that Zver is let out, this is what he does.....He will sit there and watch the entire village, watch the kids run by, and just simply sit until we require him to come back in. The snow pile is about 5 maybe 6 feet tall. He loves it!
Tink and Eve are the typical prissy gals who run out to do their business and run back in because it's cold. Otherwise, because it's chilly, it's nonstop snuggles from the girls while the boys watch out the window at the village that comes to life in the afternoon.
THE BIG NEWS!
After traveling to New York in the beginning of December, I came back to spend the holidays with Aaron and to experience the Inupiaq festivities. Little did Aaron and I know, we would receive a Christmas Miracle. An unexpected miracle as well!
4 weeks after Christmas, I was feeling different. Different as I have ever felt, even with the stressful time I was going through. All I wanted was water, and each time I ate, my stomach felt upset and just not enjoying the food. THAT was the most awkward thing about the different behaviors. I LOVE food! Well, that's when the miracle was discovered.Aaron and I are expecting a little munchkin!
This is the baby at 8 weeks!
I am 19 weeks, already in my second trimester, and we are adjusting to the changes that will come with having a baby. Below, you will find our registries, and details regarding a baby shower are TBD!
Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/baby-reg/aaronrobyn-husemann-september-2017-brevigmission/1OWEW9NY2RA04
I hope you all have had a wonderful winter and are finally enjoying the spring warm up back in the Lower 48!
Tata for now!
*Winter IS Here....STILL*
I miss you so much. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and visits with us. I love you Robyn. Remember no matter how far apart we may be I'm always here for you.
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